Before Sunset

I never even realized that 1 hour and 15 minutes was over… the ending was left hanging that would make one’s mind wander what really happened. Of course the obvious would state that he missed his flight and they made passionate love that made up for the 9 lost years. But then again eventually he will have to get on a plane and go back to his usual life…
Why do these things happen in a person’s life? There is always so much pain. Not that you can avoid pain but sometimes you get to questioning it when it happens to you every single time. Maybe I share the same sentiments with her. That I have had too many broken hearts that when the next one comes you don’t care that much anymore… OR to not give too much because you’re afraid that someday they will leave you… maybe settle down… and yet you are left there asking yourself over and over again what you had done wrong. She is right. Why have they settled down and not with you? Not that you would say yes when they asked but the feeling of being asked would have been so wonderful. That you actually made a person feel for you in that certain way. This doesn’t really apply to me now as none of my serious exes have actually settled down. But if you think of it, it does happen to a lot.
I can say that at the age of 25 I am afraid of commitment. Doesn’t that sound so pathetic?? Or maybe I feel this way because I haven’t really gotten over my past relationship. So I am sour over romantic ideas. To make myself feel better I think of it as a blessing in disguise. That this happened for a reason. Well I truly believe that everything does happen for a reason. You will just have to wait what is in store for you. “Patience is virtue” as they say. It is the waiting that sucks really. But you are left with no choice. Being single isn’t too bad. You can enjoy so much without having to worry about too many things. A lot of my friends have settled down and have kids and they always tell me how lucky I am. If only they can trade places even for a short period of time to be able to enjoy all over again. So I guess I am okay after all…
Then you meet other men that have almost all the qualities that you are looking for BUT they are not available. You keep your guard because you know they are committed to someone else. That you would put yourself in her shoes and how painful it would be to lose someone you love so much over someone else. The saddest part is you like the person so much… that you can get along so well… are so compatible at so many things… but you know you can never have him for yourself…
Maybe it is all part of the plan… but do we really have to go through all of this?? Maybe yes and maybe no. No one can really answer these kinds of questions … it is called life… I think I need the sunset…